One year ago I left the only life I knew -- stressed, tired, anxious and trying to stay in control. March 23, 2010 is a huge spiritual marker in my life. That day I trusted God completely and walked out on my career. The thing that I used as a major identifier. (silly me!)
I had been with the company for almost 7 years. It was challenging professionally and personally. It was a "navigate your own way" type of place. I learned more there than I could have in a corporate environment. I want to take a few minutes to reflect and share my story with you.
At the beginning of the 2010 year I started praying "Please renew my desire and energy to complete the job at hand", "Please help FWT prosper" and "Lord, is it time for me to leave?". Well, He answered in a big way! It is so awesome when the Lord gives you a clear answer. Too bad I was like Gideon and kept asking for one more sign before I fully trusted Him. Let me show you how He worked in my life:
1. My thought - I'll stay because I get to work from home - Answer - Starting January I had to come in to the office 2 days a week and soon to be 3 days a week
2. My thought - Money -- Answer - my commissions were cut in 1/2. Then as soon as I thought I can make this work -- my commissions were cut to a base salary.
3. My thought - Potential Growth- Answer - Being pushed back into a role I have been trying to get out of for 2 years.
4. My thought- Friendship- How am I going to leave my best friend behind or tell her I'm leaving? Answer - God provided an easy way out. I always said if "____" comes back I'm leaving and she was rehired.
I could see God's hand working. Every time I thought "Well, maybe I could make this work . . ." He would slap it down. So I have learned the hard way that when God tells you to do something it's better to acquiesce than to keep fighting back. Everyone is much happier that way :)
So fast forward a year and the Lord is still providing abundantly more! A few weeks after my retirement Brent was promoted. His product is reaching new sales level than ever before and Brent is having more and more opportunities to expand his professional life. We were able to go on 2 vacations last year (more than years previous) and most importantly Eli is able to relax at home and not always be on the go.
Leaving the only life I knew was the scariest thing I had ever done, but when I think back there was no risk at all. I referred to Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Any time I start to think I can do it on my own or I need to forge my own way I think back to this day 2010. THANK YOU LORD!